It hurt to hear her say it. He knew he deserved it. He hated himself for it. but hearing her say it was worse than he thought it would be. But. She still loved him. That was something.

"I deserve that. But you don't deserve all... this. I thought I was protecting you, but I was just protecting myself. I thought that if we started over, it would be like forgetting everything that happened. I promised myself that I'd never do that." He shuffled his feet and sighed. "I'm not going to ask you to take me back. I will, eventually. But I have to figure these things out. I'm just sorry that it took hurting you to realize that. I just wanted you to know that."

In case... just in case she left again.