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markofthewise) wrote2012-06-06 08:37 am
markofthewise) wrote2012-06-06 08:37 am
Sokka the 72nd - [Written/Action]
[This morning, Sokka trained alone again. Same time as always. Knowing the fate of Okita Souji was still in the air made the experience numb. If he was going to return, it would be in the next day or so. But it was so hard to think of death as just a temporary disappearance. Not when life had shown him what real death was like. What it meant to be a little kid hoping that maybe mom really did just go away for awhile. But she'd be back. And that dad and everyone else in the village were wrong. It was cruel that death was so cheap here. Just like everything was. He was tired and drained by the time he finished, having lost track of time completely.
Returning home, he had a quick breakfast. It was still early and most of the others were usually fond of sleeping in later than he did. However, usually Suki would take up before he headed to the smithy. Not wanting to leave her high and dry, he went to knock on her door. No answer. He knocked again. Nothing. Several thoughts occurred to him. Maybe she was sleeping deeply. Or had been kidnapped. Or had already woke up and left. Warily he turned the door knob and pushed the door open. What he expected to find was Suki's room. One slightly cluttered with her stuff and very much reflecting the woman who owned it.
It was empty. The mattress was bare. The dressers and tables were cleaned and held nothing. The curtains were drawn so that sunlight flooded the room. It was a thorough Malnosso cleaning job. It was like she had never been there at all. Like nothing had mattered. The room may as well have been on fire for how it hit him. He stumbled back. Closed his eyes and tried to will it away as a hallucination. But it was still the same. Empty. Empty. Empty.
If he walked out now, his housemates would be asking what happened. So, swallowing the lump forming in his throat, he stepped in the empty room and closed the door behind him. And then slumping against it, slid to the ground into a miserable pile. He wanted to go looking for her. Write a filter to her name. Desperately cling onto some slim hope that maybe this was a mistake and she was still in Luceti. But Sokka had always been the logical one. He didn't cling to faint hope when there wasn't any. He couldn't fool himself into thinking it was fake. And as it began to sink in, he buried his head between his arms.
An hour was spent like this, before he was at least able to pick himself up. He started to search the room, to see if the Malnosso had left anything behind by mistake. Or if Suki had hidden something for him. There was nothing under the bed or mattress, her dresser drawers were empty, and there wasn't even dust to be found in the closet. The last place he looked was the stand beside her bed. He didn't expect to find something in so obvious a place, but after pulling the drawer open, he found two things. The engagement necklace he had given her over a year ago. And a journal. Not the one she received from Luceti though. He held the necklace tightly in his hand at first. Tight enough that he was worried he might break it. For a long time he just stared at the image engraved in it. A sun over the waves. It had been a symbol of their devotion. Only now she was gone.
For a moment, he thought about wearing it. But since it wouldn't fit around his own neck, he fastened it around his arm instead. And then he opened the journal. He had an idea of what was inside. A year ago he accidentally stumbled on it while looking for something he lost in her room. He hadn't told her about it. And when he had seen the first note telling him not to snoop, he had managed to force himself not to continue. Barely. At the time, he had been upset that she was even keeping something like this. But now, it was the only words he had left from her. So he paged past the first note, expecting to find a letter for him. And for her friends. But each note hit him hard. Every single one of them were for him. He didn't have to guess when each one was written. Most of the time he could tell. He just knew. Some of them would tug at a small smile. But then another would crush him. By the time he was finished, his throat was dry and his eyes red and cheeks tear stained.
He couldn't stand to stay inside much longer. So when he was sure the house was empty, he finally left her room. In his room, he collected his gear. And lastly, his journal. For a long time he found himself staring at it. Of course he'd have to tell everyone. But no amount of sympathy or hugs was going to change things. And at the moment... he wanted to be alone. So he found a pen and an empty page and kept it brief.]
[Written]
Suki has been sent home. She's back where she belongs.
[The last bit felt so hollow and such a lie that he nearly scratched it out. Rather than wait for replies, he shut the journal completely, intending to ignore it. As he tossed it on the bed, the back cover of the journal was left open. There was a message from MARS. He was approved for a mission. Combat. Hard combat in Sirry Crags. He didn't hesitate for long. An escape from Luceti was what he wanted. It was easy to bury his feelings into combat. So he made his mark. Accepted. Tomorrow couldn't come soon enough.
He then threw the journal aside. Hard. It hit the top of his dresser and knocked off some of the weapons displayed there, sending them to the ground. When he went to go pick it up, he found himself still frustrated and incensed and threw them aside as well. And then... the bed. That ridiculously huge bed. He'd never be able to carry out a queen sized bed on his own. So taking one of those weapons, he started to cut it in half. So he could carry it out back and let it burn. He had kept the oversized bed for so long because in another life, it was the one they shared as a married couple. One they might use again if they ever did marry. But that future wasn't going to happen. So for a half hour he sat behind the house, watching the pieces of it burn. Later he would dispose of the metal properly, but for now he didn't care about things like that.
In the end, he spent the rest of the day brooding. He found some privacy in the basement under the house, where he kept re-reading the notes Suki had left for him. Later, he returned to his room to clean up the mess. Now that it was an empty room with a bed, he had the space and privacy to practice what Okita Souji had taught him. But unconsciously he'd keep slipping into Kyoshi Warrior stances before he'd catch himself and force himself to stop. As evening set in, he sat behind the house, up against a tree near Katara's garden, and tried to play a flute he had not touched in a year. When he couldn't evne produce a tune, he threw it in the woods. That night, he tossed his blankets on his floor and slept there. It was a miserable way to sleep.]
[[ooc: Okay to sum it up, Sokka is being miserable around his house, but he's not straying far from it because he doesn't want to run into people. But people can seek him out and look for him if they want to. He will NOT be responding on the journal. So if you tag that way, he won't reply! (But maybe a housemate will? I haven't talked to them about that yet.) The day after, he'll be on a mission and gone for a few weeks.
Also, backdated to the 6th.]]
Returning home, he had a quick breakfast. It was still early and most of the others were usually fond of sleeping in later than he did. However, usually Suki would take up before he headed to the smithy. Not wanting to leave her high and dry, he went to knock on her door. No answer. He knocked again. Nothing. Several thoughts occurred to him. Maybe she was sleeping deeply. Or had been kidnapped. Or had already woke up and left. Warily he turned the door knob and pushed the door open. What he expected to find was Suki's room. One slightly cluttered with her stuff and very much reflecting the woman who owned it.
It was empty. The mattress was bare. The dressers and tables were cleaned and held nothing. The curtains were drawn so that sunlight flooded the room. It was a thorough Malnosso cleaning job. It was like she had never been there at all. Like nothing had mattered. The room may as well have been on fire for how it hit him. He stumbled back. Closed his eyes and tried to will it away as a hallucination. But it was still the same. Empty. Empty. Empty.
If he walked out now, his housemates would be asking what happened. So, swallowing the lump forming in his throat, he stepped in the empty room and closed the door behind him. And then slumping against it, slid to the ground into a miserable pile. He wanted to go looking for her. Write a filter to her name. Desperately cling onto some slim hope that maybe this was a mistake and she was still in Luceti. But Sokka had always been the logical one. He didn't cling to faint hope when there wasn't any. He couldn't fool himself into thinking it was fake. And as it began to sink in, he buried his head between his arms.
An hour was spent like this, before he was at least able to pick himself up. He started to search the room, to see if the Malnosso had left anything behind by mistake. Or if Suki had hidden something for him. There was nothing under the bed or mattress, her dresser drawers were empty, and there wasn't even dust to be found in the closet. The last place he looked was the stand beside her bed. He didn't expect to find something in so obvious a place, but after pulling the drawer open, he found two things. The engagement necklace he had given her over a year ago. And a journal. Not the one she received from Luceti though. He held the necklace tightly in his hand at first. Tight enough that he was worried he might break it. For a long time he just stared at the image engraved in it. A sun over the waves. It had been a symbol of their devotion. Only now she was gone.
For a moment, he thought about wearing it. But since it wouldn't fit around his own neck, he fastened it around his arm instead. And then he opened the journal. He had an idea of what was inside. A year ago he accidentally stumbled on it while looking for something he lost in her room. He hadn't told her about it. And when he had seen the first note telling him not to snoop, he had managed to force himself not to continue. Barely. At the time, he had been upset that she was even keeping something like this. But now, it was the only words he had left from her. So he paged past the first note, expecting to find a letter for him. And for her friends. But each note hit him hard. Every single one of them were for him. He didn't have to guess when each one was written. Most of the time he could tell. He just knew. Some of them would tug at a small smile. But then another would crush him. By the time he was finished, his throat was dry and his eyes red and cheeks tear stained.
He couldn't stand to stay inside much longer. So when he was sure the house was empty, he finally left her room. In his room, he collected his gear. And lastly, his journal. For a long time he found himself staring at it. Of course he'd have to tell everyone. But no amount of sympathy or hugs was going to change things. And at the moment... he wanted to be alone. So he found a pen and an empty page and kept it brief.]
[Written]
Suki has been sent home. She's back where she belongs.
[The last bit felt so hollow and such a lie that he nearly scratched it out. Rather than wait for replies, he shut the journal completely, intending to ignore it. As he tossed it on the bed, the back cover of the journal was left open. There was a message from MARS. He was approved for a mission. Combat. Hard combat in Sirry Crags. He didn't hesitate for long. An escape from Luceti was what he wanted. It was easy to bury his feelings into combat. So he made his mark. Accepted. Tomorrow couldn't come soon enough.
He then threw the journal aside. Hard. It hit the top of his dresser and knocked off some of the weapons displayed there, sending them to the ground. When he went to go pick it up, he found himself still frustrated and incensed and threw them aside as well. And then... the bed. That ridiculously huge bed. He'd never be able to carry out a queen sized bed on his own. So taking one of those weapons, he started to cut it in half. So he could carry it out back and let it burn. He had kept the oversized bed for so long because in another life, it was the one they shared as a married couple. One they might use again if they ever did marry. But that future wasn't going to happen. So for a half hour he sat behind the house, watching the pieces of it burn. Later he would dispose of the metal properly, but for now he didn't care about things like that.
In the end, he spent the rest of the day brooding. He found some privacy in the basement under the house, where he kept re-reading the notes Suki had left for him. Later, he returned to his room to clean up the mess. Now that it was an empty room with a bed, he had the space and privacy to practice what Okita Souji had taught him. But unconsciously he'd keep slipping into Kyoshi Warrior stances before he'd catch himself and force himself to stop. As evening set in, he sat behind the house, up against a tree near Katara's garden, and tried to play a flute he had not touched in a year. When he couldn't evne produce a tune, he threw it in the woods. That night, he tossed his blankets on his floor and slept there. It was a miserable way to sleep.]
[[ooc: Okay to sum it up, Sokka is being miserable around his house, but he's not straying far from it because he doesn't want to run into people. But people can seek him out and look for him if they want to. He will NOT be responding on the journal. So if you tag that way, he won't reply! (But maybe a housemate will? I haven't talked to them about that yet.) The day after, he'll be on a mission and gone for a few weeks.
Also, backdated to the 6th.]]
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[Given that Sokka didn't seem interested in hearing people say comforting things, she can see the benefit in starting on some new project, but she's not sure what to think about him being by himself for too long. There are benefits to it, but, after too long, it leads to brooding.]
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Yeah. To the mountains to fight cultists.
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But he was going anyways, whatever she said now. It was his own decision. He was an adult, too, and she couldn't stop him. It wouldn't help for her to argue with him for it.]
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That was a stupid choice. [Because the missions are voluntary.] So you better be careful out there, or else.
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I'll come back in one piece. Don't worry.
You would think typing this on an ipod would stop me from tl;dr.
...You aren't going to be out here all night, are you?
[It might seem like an odd question to ask, but she is glancing back in the direction of the bed, which might hint that her real question is whether he has anywhere to sleep tonight. She has managed to piece together about why it is there, but she isn't fully sure if that is his only bed. She is pretty sure it was in Sokka's room back a little over a year ago -- she thinks it was Suki who thought she woke up in the wrong room? though it is hard to remember since she hadn't been in the house during the initial confusion -- but she hasn't updated herself on Sokka's living arrangements since then. For all she knows, Suki could have claimed it. Or they could have shared it, which would be...a little weird from her perspective -- less for the implication of sex, which she would be unsurprised to learn even if she would rather not know, and more because couples moving in together like before may be rare in her society (or it may be not, Ferines culture is a mystery) -- but they had been engaged for a year and it wasn't exactly an easy place to tie the knot. Still, chances were good that Sokka had just burned down his only available bed and she doubts that getting a replacement had been on his schedule. Having a bad night's sleep before a battle struck her as more poor planning.]
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No. I won't.
[He didn't have a bed. He had Suki's, but he wouldn't be using that one. In a day's time, he'd be traveling the mountains sleeping on the dirt. Sleeping on the floor wouldn't be that hard. If he could even sleep at all. He didn't figure a bed was going to make much of a difference.]
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I don't know if it'll make a difference if you don't have something to sleep on.
[Okay, not that much different. Oh well.]
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[He's slept on worse. Often and many times.]
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[She shrugs.] It's up to you.
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So, after some more silence, she gets back up and brushes her dress off.]
Don't stay out too late, okay?
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Thanks Fen.
[How long he will be out here? Well who knows.]
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Anytime.
[.......And then she leaves without ever telling him that she's going on a mission herself and thus probably won't ever get a good moment to mention it and it'll come up someday and he'll be surprised. But she's not going to go out of her way to tell him when he's got enough to worry about as it is, especially when she doesn't realize how long he'll be gone.]